Tremble – A Lenten Reflection


I love aspen trees. When I was a child, my dad often traveled on business and came home with gifts for us. I have abalone jewelry from New Zealand, traditional clothing from India, and coins and pottery from Guatemala. But one of my favorite keepsakes came from a place much less exotic.

When I was eight or nine, my dad came home from Colorado with an aspen leaf pendant for me and each of my sisters. Nothing flashy, just little rust-colored leaves preserved inside a clear coating and dangling from golden chains.

I had never seen an aspen tree, so the gift didn’t initially hold any particular significance for me. It was pretty, and it was from my father. I liked it.

But it came to mean something altogether different to me when I was 11, and my father took us to the aspens.

I remember that everything felt dangerous once we crossed west of the Mississippi. All I knew about Kansas was that it was a popular hang-out for tornadoes, and I expected one to drop out of the clouds at any moment. The roads across the Great Plains had never heard of curves, and the corn and wheat crowded in shoulder to shoulder, waving like spectators for a 100-mile parade. So much distance passed between towns that I worried a tank of gas would not get us from one to the next.

Then we reached the desert of eastern Colorado. Brown, scrubby, flat – I had never seen a place with so little vegetation. For hundreds of miles, I felt exposed. I was sure that if I lingered there, I would shrivel up and blow away.

Ah, but then the mountains: green and wild, crisp and bright, dotted with blossoms I’d never seen before – Columbine and Indian Paintbrush. And the lakes! Perfect, pure, and shockingly cold. This place had its own dangers – there were so many ways to get lost or eaten – but it was bursting with life and beauty.

We took a shuttle to the Maroon Lake trailhead. A few steps from the parking lot brought us to the water’s edge. You could see the pebbled lake bottom all the way out to the middle, where the reflection of the Maroon Bells’ rocky face took over. I could have stayed there all day, but I’m glad my parents prodded me up the trail toward the Bells. That is where I met the aspens.

Something I’ve learned about aspen trees is that you rarely see a solitary one. They colonize, sending up new saplings from their roots, multiplying into groves. So you don’t appreciate an aspen like you do, say, a sequoia – looking straight up, marveling at its individual majesty and strength. With aspens, you step back and consider them as a whole, as you would a family.

A mile or two up the trail, we paused and looked back toward the lake where we had started. It was far below us, reflecting the sun so brilliantly that you couldn’t look directly at it. But between the lake below and the trail where we stood, all down the mountainside, stood an aspen grove.

The trunks were slender and pale, and the small heart-shaped leaves were new green. When the breeze blew, the leaves quivered and turned, showing their silvery backs. The effect, as the breeze slid through the grove, was that the whole slope of the mountain appeared to be twinkling.

If you could see the sound of tinkling bells, I’m convinced that’s what it would look like.

Populus tremuloides: “quaking” or “trembling” aspen tree.

This is why I love the aspens. Even the slightest whisper of wind sets them quaking. It’s as if they acknowledge that they are tender among the hardwoods. They feel the rippling frailty of their days and shiver with humility.

I understand them.  I have seen the brokenness of the world and felt my own helplessness in it. A faint downdraft of sorrow, and I’m shaken. The world is too much for me – more and more often I feel it.


Let all the inhabitants of the land tremble,

    for the day of the Lord is coming; it is near, 

a day of darkness and gloom,

    a day of clouds and thick darkness!


I’ve seen some who, when faced with darkness, try to stand like sequoias. They must be strong, I’ve heard them say. They must hold together. They insist they can outlast the curse’s bite even as the wind ravages and strips them bare.

But the aspens shudder and bow. And they seldom do it alone.

Trembling in solitude, an aspen is lovely. But the sight of them in community – the way they twinkle like bells and scatter the sunlight off their backs! How they bend and quiver until the whole mountainside moves!

Gathering together and nodding their assent, they are altogether enchanting.

— — —

My children have learned to weep for loss.

Mighty I am not.

An ending comes for us all.

Let the kindred tremble together.

Remember that you are dust and to dust you will return.

And yet that is not the truest thing.

Amen. Thanks be to God.


  1. Jennifer K.

    Alyssa, this is full of lovely images…but the one about trembling in community…holding this in my heart as we approach the consummation of Lent.

    And the tinkling bells will ring in my mind the next time I am lucky enough to stand in an aspen grove…beautiful!!

  2. Allison

    I’ve never seen Aspens, but your post makes me long to travel, to see them sighing together. Your lines remind me of LM Montgomery’s descriptions of her native woods.

    These images of the trees swaying together — that’s how I’ve felt the last few years as I’ve had to bend and sway under the weight of my mother’s sudden death. Thankfully, my church community and this community of rabbits have helped hold me up.

    My children, too, have seen my tears.

    “And yet that is not the truest thing.” Yea and Amen.

  3. Rebecca


    Thanks for a beautiful Lenten reflection.

    I grew up in Colorado, on the scrubby flat plains, and the aspens for me have always been something sacred. Their shimmering whispers remind me of the prayers of the saints, a concrete picture that we are indeed surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses–twinkling bells scattering His light.

  4. whipple

    Bless you for writing this, Alyssa. In dark days, I have felt the frustration of not having peace. I see Elijah beneath a broom tree, begging for death, and yet it’s still hard to get over the idea that I have failed God when I despair. Thanks for showing the aspen, bowing and twinkling and giving glory to the One.

    It is good to know that He is great enough to hold me in my bowing.

  5. Scott Richardson

    My wife and I spent our honeymoon near Aspen, CO, and hiked the trail you wrote about back in 1987. Then we took our girls there in 2011 and hiked it again. It is indeed beautiful. I will never look at aspens quite the same … they’ve always been one of my favorite trees, but now even more so.

    Last night, we celebrated a Passover Seder meal with our house church and a few other friends. It was like an evening of experienced art and story. My wife and her sister set a lovely “table” on the floor, and we read the Haggadah together, telling the story of “our peoples'” deliverance from Egypt, and we marveled at the wonder of our own. In our midst was a family who have experienced deep loss — their young son is now essentially autistic, after being oxygen-deprived a few years ago while being medivac’d out of Mozambique to South Africa. Eating the bitter herbs together, I couldn’t help but think of Caleb, and all that has happened to him. The loss of a dream on the part of his parents, and his siblings. Our friends at times try to stand strong, but mostly, they tremble, and wonder. God is strong, God is loving, God is sovereign. But his ways are also inscrutable at times. And so we tremble.


    I have read this several times and it continues to feed me with beauty. Thank you. I sent it to a friend who lived a few years in Denver. It helped her today after a funeral.

  7. Jess

    Oh my goodness. This is lovely.

    I’ve lived in Colorado all my life and aspens have always been one of my favorite things. Last summer I tried to describe them to a friend of mine who had never seen them and couldn’t conjure up the words to do them justice. So now I’ve sent her this post, which comes much closer to hitting the mark. 🙂

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